“There is no shortage of songs, movies and television shows depicting the difficulties of breakups with a romantic partner. But when it comes to navigating the end of friendships, it can feel like we’re on our own.”

WHO IS YOUR GO-TO PERSON? Without considering your family, who is the first person you would think of sharing trivial things such as corny jokes, funny or inspiring videos, or hardcore personal and career problems. I will give you a few seconds to think it through

Is the person someone from your work? Someone from college? Highschool? Or since childhood?

Had it ever been someone like me?

The question weighed down on me deeply. Sometimes, I hear people talk about their friends and see them aware of what the other person likes or dislikes, what makes their friends angry or anxious, what movies they like, what type of clothes they wear and every subtle things I wished we had. That pang of instant envy that they were able to make it through together for a long period of time.

Remember how it was like in college? At first, we were all strangers. We all have sets of acquaintances we were hanging around with. Eventually, in time, we were all packed in one room with common course and we had the opprtunity to mingle with one another. How did we even began to get attached to one another? I can barely remember already, but I do remember glimpses of memories in the park when we would stroll under the moonless night, with only the lights from the lamp posts lighting the bricked pathwalk.

I often wonder if things had ever been my fault? After graduation, everyone had chosen their own career paths. The first few months, we would write messages and communicate with whatever ways social media had in store to keep us together.

Evetually, it all died down.

It had always been my fear to be left behind. To be unwanted. To be the person clinging to memories or moments when everyone has eventually moved on. And so, I had been cautious to let people be in my inner circle, but I gave us the chance it haunts me to think that now I am alone… again.. in this stupid damn circle.

Now, everyone of us have our own different lives to live. Our own career goals to conquer. It is my hope that in one of your fleeting moments when you are looking out the window, or drinking a cup of coffee, or watching your child, that you would remember that for a time in your life, you once had a friend.

Quote from “Why Ending a Friendship Can Be Worse Than a Breakup” by Carly Breit (https://time.com/5402304/friendship-breakups-worse-romantic/)